"Because when we first meet people, everyone puts on his or her best face. We put on the best clothes, we act the nicest we've ever done. It takes time to see the real person."
SAJC Canoeing Team (:
I'm supposed to be doing work but look at what I'm doing now. Nvm just let me rant. You know I hate it when I have PMS and what's worse is this happens every month without fail, maybe with the exception of last month, and I have absolutely no control over it. Damn it I get so irritated and annoyed and stressed and tired and everything negative, it's like this emotional ride which I hate hate hate. It makes me feel like hiding in a corner and cry. The smallest things get me upset. It makes me feel like some stupid childish pessimistic person who has no control over her life or whatsoever. It makes me feel like some anti-social kid who chooses to keep quiet and at the same time everything is building up inside. It decreases my level of tolerance and makes me impatient. It makes me hate school even more. Sigh why must I have pms ):
x That scene keeps flashing before me and I can't ignore it. Stop, you make me feel like screaming. I don't want to have doubts.
x Sometimes I look at them and I wonder what this could've been if I'd started this correctly.
Anw on a lighter note, first month was aaaaaawesome! (: Although the surprise wasn't exactly a surprise HAHA sorry I think I spoilt the plan, again. I think the sunflower died, but I hope the soccer bear is still alive. HAHA someone's trying to make me fat ): Oh we watched prom night! I remember counting down to it hahaha. It's better than strangers which made no sense and dark knight which made us sleep. Lovely day, thank you (:
Had training just now. Coach made us carry boats by ourselves. I can't place the boat on my shoulder the right way! I hate it when it slips or when my paddle isn't held properly and when I can't balance it and when I have no strength to climb that first step up or do anything, sigh.
I need to study. I need to sleep. I need to run. I'm so in love with yong tau foo now hahaha. Braces hurting my tongue. ):
SINGFEST tomorrow hahaha yay I'm so so sooooo excited! (: More time together. (: